For Those Adoptees Who Really Were Given Away/abandoned…?
…rather than those who were taken from their mother, contrary to her preference.
1. Have you contacted/attempted to find your birth family?
2. For those who have found their birth family, did you receive a second rejection, or has it turned out ‘happy’ for you?
This got really long. Sorry. And thanks in advance to those of you who do read it all the way through.
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My Story.
I know for certain that I was both unwanted and neglected (at least by the time I was given away). While I’ve grown up hearing the stories about how poorly I was cared form it didn’t sink in until I read the following summary letter that the Child Services SWer wrote for me (identifying info. removed – I didn’t need to remove all that much).
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I have gone through your adoption file and this is a summary of the information it contains. Unfortunately there is no information about your birth and where you were born. The information it contains is very limited overall.
From the records your adoption was a private arrangement. This was not unusual at the time and private adoptions would be arranged through a third party, perhaps a general practitioner or a vicar for example.
The circumstances of your adoption with your mum and dad were that you were the daughter of a friend of your adopted mothers neighbour. This neighbour had heard that your birth mum had a new boyfriend and no longer had time to care for you.
There is very little information about your birth mother recorded on the file. Her name at the time was [name] and she lived at [address]. [name] already had another child called [sister] who was older than you. No other information about [sister] is given.
Social Services first heard about you going to live with your mum and dad from the health visitor involved. As a result a social worker went to visit your birth mother [name] at [address]. This was a two bedroomed flat in a multi storey block. The social worker who visited recorded that she had known [name] and her parents for a number of years and I believe she was indicating that there had been concerns in the past. When the social worker arrived at [name]‘s flat she found it to be in a state of chaos. There were empty cardboard boxes and litter of every description and old furniture piled up in every part of the flat.
[name] admitted to the social worker that through a neighbour, you had been accepted for adoption by your parents, [adad][amom]. She told the social worker that she had handed you over to you mum and dad on the 7th April 1973 when they came to the flat. [name] had told the social worker that she did not know your mum and dad other than they had no children and seemed to be fond of you. [name] had not made any enquiries about your wellbeing since and did not ask the social worker whether she had done anything wrong.
The social worker recorded that [name] gave no indication of having regretted her decision or of having changed her mind.
[name] explained that she had asked for a visit from a social worker and the indication was that because this had not happened she could not go on waiting and had made her own arrangement. When your parents collected you from the flat [name] signed a written statement giving them permission to adopt you.
There is further information recorded on the file in relation to how your mum and dad felt when they first saw you. Your mum may have told you about the conditions in which you were living. They described the flat as being in a very dishevelled state and this fitted with what the social worker who visited [name] had found. You were reported to have spent long hours in your cot and were extremely dirty when your mum and dad first saw you. You were very quiet and withdrawn and suffering with very bad nappy rash. They felt very concerned and worried for you.
When you first went to live with your mum and dad they were very concerned because you were extremely quiet and withdrawn. From what we have learned since about children who are neglected we understand that when a child hasn’t had their basic needs met they have become very quiet and withdrawn. These children quickly learn that crying doesn’t work as they still do not get what they need in the way of food, clean nappies and affection for example.
Gradually as you began to feel safe and to have your needs met you began to make more natural responses and soon began to cry and laugh and make normal movements. By the time you were nearly a year old you had developed a good deal and were walking and beginning to talk as expected for your age.
Your mum and dad made an application to adopt you in May 1973 and the Adoption Order was granted on the [date] August 1973.
I hope, whilst the information is very limited [my name] that it has helped you understand more why you were adopted and help you in relation to any decisions you may now make in trying to make contact with any birth relatives.
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February 27th, 2010 at 6:33 pm
Thank you 7rin for sharing your story.
“For those adoptees who really were given away/abandoned…”
I’m one of those. I’m the youngest of three siblings. My eldest sister tells me that she was kept for a months before she was given up whereas I was given up on day 1. I spent the first month in a home so I have no idea how I was treated. I’ve been avoiding the shocking reports and stories that are coming out about the era.
“When you first went to live with your mum and dad they were very concerned because you were extremely quiet and withdrawn. From what we have learned since about children who are neglected we understand that when a child hasn’t had their basic needs met they have become very quiet and withdrawn. These children quickly learn that crying doesn’t work as they still do not get what they need in the way of food, clean nappies and affection for example.”
I can definitely empathize on that. I’ve always been very quiet and withdrawn. My parents always told me that I never cried as a baby. They spent a lot of the time checking on me to see if I was alive; I was that quiet.
“1. Have you contacted/attempted to find your birth family?”
Yes.
“2. For those who have found their birth family, did you receive a second rejection, or has it turned out ‘happy’ for you?”
My natural mother was the only one to reject me. It was depressing for a short period of time. On the day it occurred I went walkabout for 6 hours, it ended up pouring rain a couple hours into it. When I think back I can jokenly say “God shared my pain and cried for me”. Life goes on Indy.
The rest of my family has so far accepted me. I’m very close to my sisters. I’m proud to say that I will be giving away her away at her wedding and I’m going to be a Great Uncle soon.
“How did you break out of this cycle of thoughts, and do you still have this confusion of thoughts?”
Ask myself the question “Is this what I really “need” in my life?”
Sitting at home pondering about things won’t help stop the thought. Your better off seeking answers regardless of the outcome at least you made an attempt.
Come to the realization that some things wont be answered or just dont have any answers.
February 27th, 2010 at 10:33 pm
I’m sorry for your loss, and the circumstances surrounding it.
I wish you the best in whatever you decide to do.
February 28th, 2010 at 2:52 am
You should still meet with them, time changes a lot of things, they likely have matured. Go into it prepared for the worse and hoping for the best. At the very least you will be able to see were you got your genetics and hopefully some medical background. If things go bad you can always leave but if you don’t do this you will always wonder “what if”, do it to get closure. I don’t know how old you are but likely your over 18? That’s a lot of time and people do change, they mature. My son’s biological mom four years ago was a raging alcoholic who neglected to feed him or change his diaper, he nearly starved to death. She went to jail, she got sober and now she has turned her life around. She still has a long way to go, but she is not the same women she was when I got custody. I want my son to have a relationship with her, we can’t turn back the clock and undo the damage her drinking while pregnant created but we can move forward. In the same way you can’t go back to stop them from leaving you but you can forgive them, move forward and try to build a new relationship with them.
February 28th, 2010 at 7:23 am
WOW! I’m sorry your life has been like this, Only you know what to do. Why not try? Think this thru. Good luck with what ever you choose.
February 28th, 2010 at 1:20 pm
To an extent I understand what you mean here. My bmom didn’t want me. She had no desire to be my mother, yet she has two sons, one older than me and one younger, and part of me is dieing to meet her. I want to know if she is where I got my freckles and my nose. But on the other hand, I hate her for not loving her only daughter enough to want to be in my life. I think you should meet her. Like in a public place just so satisfy your curiosity. After that, I think it’ll be easier to decide whether or not you want to continue some sort of relationship with her.
February 28th, 2010 at 5:37 pm
I’m not adopted but I do have siblings that got adopted out before I was born. My mom was young and was facing a hard time in her life and had to give up her children. It was the hardest thing ever that she had to do. She held alot of grief through the years and blocked out her feelings. Until a couple of weeks ago when we found them. They were thrilled to find us and we were thrilled to find them. We met them and it was a bitter sweet reunion. Alot of happiness and tears of joy. It was the best feeling ever and my mom explained to them what happened and they understood and forgave her. In that short of time, we all have grown close. They were looking for us but didn’t have all the info to be able to locate us. We now feel that our family is truely complete. And we will never let them go again.
February 28th, 2010 at 7:15 pm
Two questions.
Are you British?
By private arrangement do they mean private adoption?
I’m only asking as a law was passed in 1958 stating that adoptions had to go through LA social services or adoption agencies.http://www.paclii.org/vu/legis/vu-uk_act…
29. Restriction on making arrangements for adoption
(1) It shall not be lawful for any body of persons to make any arrangements for the adoption of an infant unless that body is a registered adoption society or a local authority.
(2) It shall not be lawful for a registered adoption society or local authority by whom arrangements are made for the adoption of an infant to place him in the care and possession of a person who proposes to adopt him if an adoption order in respect of the infant could not lawfully be made in favour of that person.
(3) Every person who -
(a) takes any part in the management or control of a body of persons which exists wholly or in part for the purpose of making arrangements for the adoption of infants and which is not a registered adoption society or a local authority; or
(b) is guilty of a contravention of subsection (1) or subsection (2) of this section;
shall be liable on summary conviction to imprisonment for a term not exceeding six months or to a fine not exceeding one hundred pounds or to both.
According to my son’s adoption paperwork I wanted him adopted by two parents but when I eventually saw the paperwork (after we reunited) I found out that wasn’t the only lie on it. All the information came from my mother and about 75% of it was untrue – I should have been included with the paperwork being filled in but I refused to agree to the adoption and was coerced into surrendering.
My son’s belief of what was written was true was reinforced when he found my family and lied to him for almost 5 years by stating they didn’t know where I was. They never told me they had contact with him.
I found him in 2004 without actively searching and we were both very hurt and upset that my family had lied for so long and would have continued to lie if I hadn’t found him. It has been a rollercoaster but I am thankful that he is in my life and that he does know the truth now.
ETA thanks for explaining – makes sense now as it still went through SWs and there are court records
February 28th, 2010 at 9:02 pm
wow, i read it all and just want to say THANK GOODNESS for your adoptive parents who have cared for and nurtured you into adulthood, your biological mother could have really damaged you.
I am not adopted so i can’t really answer the question, but i just wanted to share that with you.
:0)
EDIT: wow! I don’t know what i said wrong, all i was saying was that your adoptive parents probably saved your life. I didn’t say anything bad or nasty at all. If you disagree with my views that your adoptive parents rescued you from a potentially dangerous situation, thats fine. You know best, after all they were your parents. But you should articulate that in a more coherent and controlled way. Swearing at me is definitely uncalled for at best, and at worst, completely juvenile.
If you feel angry about something, maybe its better to direct it towards the person that offended you, not me!
Toodles!